Trolling in IM…Is Still Trolling

[14:40] Landa Crystal: (Saved Thu Apr 24 17:34:01 2014)Venus what is your problem?
[14:40] Landa Crystal: (Saved Thu Apr 24 17:35:13 2014)If you have a problem with me tell me and we will fix. You do not know who I am so Cool it woman
[14:43] Venus Petrov: Hi Landa, I don’t have a clue what it is you are talking about.
[14:43] Landa Crystal: Really?
[14:43] Landa Crystal: did you not read my blog?
[14:43] Landa Crystal: if you did not then my apologies
[14:43] Landa Crystal: but if you did
[14:43] Venus Petrov: I did not know that you have a blog.
[14:43] Landa Crystal: then I am happy I was wrong
[14:43] Venus Petrov: OK
[14:43] Landa Crystal: Just do not mess with me
[14:44] Landa Crystal: if you do
[14:44] Landa Crystal: I will give it back
[14:44] Landa Crystal: get it?
[14:44] Venus Petrov: You sound so threatening. I have no clue what was in your blog that you might be upset with me about.
[14:44] Landa Crystal: I am not upset
[14:44] Landa Crystal: I just want you to know
[14:45] Venus Petrov: Kind of a curious way of introducing yourself. Anyway, enjoy your day Landa.
[14:45] Landa Crystal: I am not introducing myself
[14:46] Landa Crystal: I am just warning you to not mess with me
[14:46] Landa Crystal: good day

And the post referred to in the comments…How SR returned to the feeds…clearly demonstrating that she has not even come close to moving on…


Lets Talk About Sex-Sexual Meme

  1. What is your sexual orientation or do you not like to label yourself? – I am heterosexual, attracted to men. 
  2. Name a physical attribute that you find attractive or sexy. – I am going to keep this fairly PG…lol.
  3. Are you promiscuous, a prude or in between? – I suspect in SL I’m considered a prude because I don’t cyber or SLex.  I am painfully shy in RL so I have never been promiscous.  I’m not a prude, but chances are my shyness will prevent me from proving it 🙂
  4. What turns you on? – When my man comes in from mowing the lawn and he has that awesome man smell…RAWR…and also, when we are in conversation and he interrupts and says, “You are so beautiful,” right out of the blue! 
  5. Are you dominant or submissive? – I find the word submissive alone makes my skin crawl and my blood pressure rise…So I’m going with dominant 🙂
  6. Are you into sexual roleplay? – Uh, no…I would LMAO the entire time and/or die of embarrassment.
  7. Which sexual position is your favorite? – I’m not telling…ok fine…I’m going with cowgirl too…See, told ya dominate 🙂  
  8. Do you have any fetishes? – No, although after a good roll in the hay, if that man could turn into a pizza and an ice cold beer, I would totally adopt that as a fetish.
  9. Have you or would you do porn, amateur or professional? – No way! 
  10. Do you consider yourself sexy? – Yes, in a I carry myself with confidence but not arrogance kind of way. 

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Blender Bender!

As most of you know, I have been struggling for well over a year now to learn to make mesh models. I spent a good deal of time messing about with Sketchup, which is easy and intuitive, but learned in quick order that it is not acceptable for SL Grid love because it is messy mesh and is the chosen tool of the devil. So…despite my best efforts to avoid it, Blender it would have to be.

Like most people, such as myself, that have no experience and very little time to hone such a skill, Blender can be a nightmare and lets face it, to the experienced, the GUI alone is fright inducing. To date, I have managed to watch a few beginner tutorials on Youtube enough times that I was able to produce a poorly modeled coffee mug and a tufted cushion. Yay. There are some great tutorials out there, but very few of them move at a pace or provide enough detail to develop a true understanding of the interface or what those gazillion buttons do, mean, or where they are hidden.

I had many times seen Auryn Beorn, the owner of Black Tulip, post about her books. At first I thought well if I don’t have enough time to watch video tutorial, I don’t have time to read how to books. But, in my desperation to understand this beast called Blender, I decided to take a look at her offerings. The picture below is just a small sampling of all that she offers in her store:


I must say that to call them “books” may be a bit of a misnomer. What they are is amazingly detailed presentations with explanations of everything you NEED to know just to navigate Blender. Details that are so often left out of videos, like how to get back to your screen if you accidently change view or mode, and how to bring up menus, that seem to just be there in videos but not on your screen…been there too many times to count, are all clearly explained. The series of books takes you from the beginning to the most challenging part, texturing your creation! While you will not be in expert at Blender after an hour, you will save yourself valuable time and have a handy reference that you can virtually flip through at whim.

You can find the goodies here:

Main store: Black Tulip SURL
MP: Black Tulip Marketplace
Blog: Black Tulip Store Blog

I highly recommend a trip to the store if you are a new builder. There are tons of learning materials and useful tools for new as well as established builders…Scripts, scripting, GIMP, Animation tutes, poses, and some nice mesh models are just a few of the items you will find at Black Tulip!


Happy building!

Dark Day


It is always a dark date/day for me.  It is still hard, but it is getting easier.  I smile more now when I remember and cry less.   I have some awesome friends that posted some pics on FB that brought back some great memories and some laughs, as well as a few, OMG…what were we thinking!  Bitter sweetness.  February is a tough month with all of the loss experienced.  I allow myself the whole month to swan dive into the pit of apathy, wallow around in it, and then GTFO.  Tomorrow will begin my Spring.


Hope…a funny thing it is.

When I was younger, I was filled with hopes and dreams, rather the idealistic type that is so appropriate for youth lacking real world experiences. Though I changed directions late in the game, the same hopes and dreams remain. Some I’m living, some I’m still hoping for…and waiting…lol.

I grew up with a chronically ill father who suffered in ways that looking back now, seems unimaginable, but they did not then because my father was always filled with so much hope and positive energy. His hope for health, for medical progress, and ultimately a cure kept him alive for as long as he did live. His hope was infectious, and empowering, and despite his illness, he forged out a very successful life because he simply did not lose hope. He died young, 52, but he lived every minute of every day that he was physically able. I recall thinking then that in the instance of his death that even false hope is had better than no hope at all.

For me, as I progress forward in my life, career, hope is always present. To lose hope despite some very life altering hurts along the way seemed like swinging the doors wide open and inviting in defeat. To do so would seem unnatural to me.

I took some time (a lot) yesterday to read the thread from the link that I posted in my previous blog entry. I recognized how my experiences online and with different individuals have caused my views to change in some regards, not all. I have grown more cynical for sure…but I have grown. My life is good and I recognize how fortunate that I am, when so many are not. I hope that I keep growing from my experiences, the good ones, as well as the bad. I hope that the work each day makes the difference in the lives of the children we make therapies for, and the adults as well. Mostly, though it has been difficult from time to time, I hope that I never lose hope and that I have the mental and emotional acuity to recognize the good, the strength, and the growth that is born from adversity.

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